Shattered

 

S h a t t e r e d

I never knew you were made of glass

Until today.........

I thought you were made of steel and iron

And could take on a lion or a bear

Until today..............

 I never knew what  a rose petal I was

Until today....................

I thought I was the strongest  woman in the world

And could stand and fight with the baddest of the bad

Until today.......................

But today I saw myself being carried away by wind

Unable to stop myself from floating and flying

Not of my own accord but by someone else's

And I was terrified..................

Floating, floating, there on the wind like a rose petal

Trying to hold onto anything I could grab

But there was nothing to grab onto.

And I just kept rushing away carried by that angry wind

All the time watching you standing on a distant shore

Watching me watching you

There were tears in my eyes at the thought that I was losing you

At the thought that I would never see your face again

And yet at the same time, you seemed like a perfect stranger to me

And someone that I didn't even know and never had.

I watched you climb a mountain then that appeared on the shore

And you stood on that mountain as you watched me

Being carried away by the wind,

And you screamed out my name, once, and you jumped

You jumped off the mountain top as I watched helplessly

And you shattered into a hundred million pieces there in the sunlight

And covered the shore with crystal shards of yourself, of your heart

And all that you were and  ever had been.

And suddenly the winds changed direction

And carried me back to that shore

And dropped me there upon the shattered pieces of you

And I lay there, a tiny rose petal, who had loved you with all it's heart

And I wept like a thousand hurricanes

Full of tears for you and all you'd meant to me.

Until one of the shards of you fell on me

And tore me to ribbons

And we were both shattered in that one moment

And both stunned at the realization

That we were not as strong as we thought we were

We were fragile, so fragile

And we were dying.........................

And the world would go on in it's never ending cosmic dance

Without us.

©by Voo

May 25. 2019

People Made Of Love

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People Made of Love

I sit here waiting for the man that I love

The stars are shining in the night skies above

The moon is hanging just over the hill

And all of the world is silent and still.

My love throbs inside me like the beat of a drum

Waiting for him and the moment to come

When my eyes fall upon him and his eyes meet mine

And he kisses my mouth with his own, sweet as wine.

These are moments I cherish

These are moments of bliss

His dark eyes full of passion,

His mouth burning kiss.

I will wait for his shadow to fall upon me

I will wait for his eyes to acknowledge and see

I will wait for his hunger as hungry as mine

To make it's need known, to show me it's sign.

And there in the darkness when the whole world is still

I will give myself to him, I will bend to his will

I will stand there before him with my candle and spark

And we'll love like before and we'll dance in the dark.

He's a phantom and ghost

He's a thief in the night

He's a mythical man

That only lives in my sight.

I conjured him up one night in my mind

And I created him from my own special design

And I loved him to life with my need and my want

And gave him my heart to dwell in and haunt.

And he lives there in shadow, a specter and myth

The man that I long for and want to be with

Just a thought in my brain that I breathed into form

That took on flesh and blood with no need to be born.

They might say I am mad

And they may rightly think so

But the man that I made out of love

Doesn't know.

He's as real as I am

And I will always be

But what only I know

Is that my lover made me.

He made me of dreams and wishes and wants

And gave me his own heart to dwell in and haunt

And we met in the darkness when the full moon was bright

And we clung to each other and we danced in the night.

And when morning had come with it's bright yellow sun

The night fled away and we two turned to run

For we couldn't exist in the exposure of day

And we held hands there tightly as we faded away.

 But we met soon again

When the white moon was full

And the forces of wanting

With their pleasure and pull.

Drew us back to the yearning

And to love's glowing spark

To take form out of shadow

And to dance in the dark.

I don't know if forever is a word meant for us

We who don't know of breathing or heart beat or pulse

We are creatures of dreams, substantial enough

To take form for short moments

Though we're made out of love.

People made out of love

And magic and dream

Not made like mere mortals

Who are just what they seem.

We are haunting and haunted

And we know of none else

I am created by him

And he sprang from myself.

And now I sit here waiting for the man that I love

Again to appear with the full moon above

The passing of time is a blade that cuts sharp

For people like us that exist in the dark.

We didn't learn how to hold back the time

I just wanted his love and he wanted mine

So we conjured and created but something went wrong

And our moments are magic but they do not last long.

Perhaps one day we'll learn that trick

From magicians who are much more clever

And my love and I can live and love

And dance here in the dark forever........................

©by Voo

June 3, 2019

10:56 p.m.

 

Need Your Love So Bad

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Need Your Love So Bad

She's sitting at the bar alone

Her hand around a glass

Looking like a movie star

With elegance and class.

She doesn't see me watching

Or if she does, ignores

My hungry stare at her lips, her hair

And wanting to see more.

That red dress fits her contours

Like she was poured in it

Those legs, they take my breath away

And give my loins a fit.

I finish off my white wine

And order something else

That white wine isn't cutting it

So keep it on the shelf.

Bring me some good Crown Royal

Maybe a Sloe Gin Fizz

I've to get my courage up

I've got to finish this.

Look at all that long black hair

Look at those big brown eyes

Look at those luscious sweet red lips

And at those creamy thighs.

I didn't know when I walked in

This little bar tonight

That I would lose my heart and soul

To that girl that shines so bright.

She shifts around now in her seat

And quickly looks around

The band is gearing up to play

That smokey bluesy sound.

I down my drink, get to my feet

And saunter toward the bar

But other soldiers beat me there

Like they're engaged in war.

She looks at them with discerning eyes

And smiles a smile so sweet

Nods at one fine sharp dressed man

And gets then to her feet.

I watch her as she walks with him

Up to the dim dance floor

And they engage in a dance so hot

It melts that barroom floor.

I can't believe my loveless eyes

As I move back to my chair

I had no chance to have that dance

What was I doing there?

Look at the way she moves her hips

How she tosses her hair around

How she licks her lips and her fingertips

On his back, run up and down.

He tries to make a move on her

As his hands slide down her back

Down to her hips and she parts her lips

And stops him in his tracks.

"Uh-uh!" she says and points her finger

Into his startled face

And no matter what he tries to do

She puts him in his place.

I am so pleased at what I see

And I hide my face and smile

I  like the way she handles him

I like her sense and style.

I wonder if she'll do the same

To me if I get fresh

i wonder if I'll get a turn

And who will be her next.

But it's not me, that much is sure

So i settle back to learn

What i might use to turn her head

And make that sweet thing burn.

My body turns to traitor

And soon i lose control

All night i watch her dancing there

While i seek to reach my goal.

She walks by me back to the back

And I want so much to follow

But I can't move my frozen feet

Or lift my glass to swallow.

Her perfume fills my nostrils

With a fragrance oh, so rare

And I breathe her in deep in my lungs

As her perfume lingers there.

I pay the band to play my song

Perhaps they'll dedicate

It just to her from the man in black

And I can hardly wait.

My heart beats like a school boy's

My chance, it comes at last

They dedicate the song to her

And I hear her gasp.

She turns to look in my direction

And I raise my glass and wink

And she looks away like i wasn't there

And my poor heart starts to sink.

I need your love so bad, girl

The blues man sings it loud

Give it up! he growls at her

With approval from the crowd.

And I sit in hope and fear of failure

Looking at that frame so fine

Wishing i could win her heart

Wishing she was mine.

She flirts with some tall rich tycoon

She laughs a silky laugh

She lets him kiss her lovely throat

And my heart tears in half.

I cannot stand the torture

I cannot stand the fear

I wonder how I'll walk away

And why I came in here

That goddess is out of my league

What made me think I'd win

She is the kind that can take her time

And her pick of all the men.

I'm just a no one, no one needs

I have not much to give

But how I'd love to have her be

The reason that I live.

i watch her slip off her red shoes

And rub her tender feet

She sighs a sigh that makes me cry

Hell, even her sigh is sweet!

I'd love to have her in my arms

My car, my room, my bed

I'd kiss her from her dancing toes

To the top of her sexy head.

I'd pour my love out on that girl

I'd make her feel so nice

But who am I fooling, that girl won't even

Look at this mad man twice!

I pay my tab and get to my feet

I won't allow myself to look

For I know the crowd is hovering there

And reading her like a book.

I feel so lonely and defeated

As I stumble to the door

Walk out into the cold night air

Not caring any more.

I find my car in the parking lot

The old one bent and blue

And my eyes behold a sight that i

Cannot believe is true.

She's leaning there upon the car

As plain as plain can be

And she says, No, I will not come with you

But you're going home with me.

i pinch myself to see if I'm dead 

I don't believe the state I'm in

She leads me round my car and opens

The door to a Mercedes Benz.

We drive up in the movie star hills

Up to a steel gray gate

It opens with her secret code

And man, I feel so great.

She kisses me upon the lips

And pulls me to her arms

And I give in to sex and sin

Fall victim to her charms.

You're the man for me, she whispers low

I've prayed to God above

To send me someone just like you

Man, I've got to have your love.

And the blues song fills the cold night air

As cold champagne fills my cup

And I reach to take my fill of her....

And, oh damn, then I wake up!!!!

©by the very bad Voo

June 9, 2019

2:58 p.m.

The Silent Dark

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The Silent Dark

The silent dark calls my name

Without words, in whispers

That caress like a hundred feathers

Silky and teasingly 

In the hands of a lover who lives

To indulge himself in the taunting of my flesh.

It is too dark to see the face of he

Whom my soul loves

But I know he is there, waiting

For my eyes to catch the glimmer of his own

And run barefoot through cool wet grass

To enter the shelter of his arms.

It is in darkness that he resides

In darkness that he dwells alone

Chanting my name like a holy man

Hidden away in a sacred place that only he knows.

I cannot hear him in the morning

Nor at noon time when the sun is high

And life revolves like the Earth does

In it's never ending orbital dance.

It is at midnight, in the silent dark

That the call rings like a bell in my ears

And quickens the beating of my heart

Like the pounding of a horse's hooves.

I cannot see the path but I find my way

Led by love and the glow of his heart

That only I can see there in his chest

His aura shining like an angel's borrowed halo.

As his arms close 'round me, I sigh, content

And the darkness enfolds us like a blanket

And covers and shields us from prying eyes

Eyes who seek to take what is not theirs to take.

It is only then, within arms entwined

That we feel safe and complete, whole

Like a puzzle seeking for missing pieces

And finding those pieces at last.

The silence is as beautiful as the darkness

A song in and of itself

To be sung by the chosen few who know of it's treasures

Who dare to explore without light the depth of it's delights.

We are creatures of the night, my love and I

And we love what we find there

We fear nothing except to be apart, knowing that cannot be

For we are one in every fiber of our beings, counterparts.

The voice of darkness bids us come and we obey

Running like children down paths that protect

And silver streets that no eyes see but ours

It is our world, our place, our home.

When morning comes, we slip back into shadow

And we wait until the first star blinks on in the sky

It is our alarm clock, our inkling that another night approaches

And in anticipation, we listen for the call to come

From beyond the silent dark.

©by Voo

June 18, 2019

6 a.m.